Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Lost time.. can never be found again ;)



"Lost time can never be found again."

  1. Wake up early.
  2. Jog for a while.
  3. Drink coffee and eat some bread with butter.
  4. Read El Filibusterismo.
  5. Check your notebooks.
  6. Do your homeworks and activities. (optional)
  7. Prepare your stuffs.
  8. Check your accounts online.
  9. Eat lunch and brush teeth afterwards.
  10. Take a bath.

Probably, my routine each morning was those above.

Unfortunately, I didn't accomplish some of it.
Instead...

  • Wake up, not early.
  • Turn on the TV and watch news.
  • Sit on the couch and wait for Detective Conan.
  • Go online, aftermath.
  • Prepare your stuffs and homeworks.
  • Eat lunch and brush your teeth.
  • Take a bath.


How lazy, I know.

I just can't take that outta my system..
Im already fifteen, since when?
Last July 24, Saturday. Exactlt, three thirty pm.


At oo, nanunuod pa nga ako ng cartoons at anime, sa edad kong toh?
Oo, kasi fan ako.
electric fan?
Hindi, mahilig lang talaga ko manuod.
Movies, anime, cartoons, kahit na anong makakatulong para ma-improve ko tong buhay ko.




So balik tayo sa topic..
Nasayang nga ang oras na sana'y naging produktibo kung walang telebisyon dito sa kwarto ko.

Pagpasok ko sa school, nalaman kong naiwan ko ang notebook sa isang subject na may assignment!

BINGO!


Alam niyo na kung bakit nangyare yun.

Kaya, kung estudyante ka na kagaya ko, unahin mo munang pagbutihan ang pag-aaral mo.

Matapos ang ilang dekada ng pag-aaral, MAGTRABAHO KA!


Tulungan mo ang Pilipinas para gayahin ka rin ng iba.
Maging mabuti kang impluwensya.


Wag mong sayangin ang oras sa panunuod ng movies na showing sa sinehan dahil lang bida si Angelina Jolie o kaya si Leonardo DiCarpio ng Titanic.


Magbasa ka ng Noli at Fili kahit na nakakatamad.
Masarap sa pakiramdam ang makatapos ng isang libro ng wala kang nilalaktawang pahina.

Unawain mo pagbinasa mo.
Syempre, sayang ulit ang oras kung wala kang natutunan after.


Ngayon, alam niyo ba kung anung nangyare nung naiwan ko ung notebook ko..

Well, hindi naman ako favorite ng teacher pero nag-suffer ang klase dahil naiwan ko ang notebook ko. Hindi kami ng check e.

"VIP" -- hindi self-proclaimed yan pero ganyan talaga feeling ko after.
para sakin, hindi positibo ang masabihan niyan.
Basta.
Wag mo na itanong kung bakit.






kasi tinatamad ako.

Friday, July 2, 2010

Weighing the word "fear" and "fun"



Exactly, life is an unfair journey to.. heaven knows where.

The moment I feel life was hitting on me, Im suddenly confronted by the thought, that possibly, my seatmate was right, Isa lang ang kailangan mong baunin sa araw-araw, lakas ng loob.

Guys don't cry, they fight! Cause they know life is tough.. and to live and survive, you must be tougher. Some guys who have their hearts broken, trust no one. That was hard for them. We know, including me, that everything was unfair, and there's no such thing as equal or balance. Everything is being compared, people never have the same story, family, environment nor attitudes.

At the end, all of us will feel the feelings like angst, remorse, bitterness, irritated, annoyed, insulted, miserable, guilt, thankful, pleased, blessed, admired, challenged but never satisfied. No one can achieve the complete happiness and satisfaction without courage. If you have it then your willing to risk something, the possibilities are, you'll win or lose, but neither the two, there's something to gain.
You faced something you never thought you will.
There's nothing to fear if you have the courage.

From there, you'll see how fruitful each obstacle's result was. Before Im afraid to ride the space shuttle until now I am, cause I don't have the courage to try it. I felt weak cause my schoolmates told me that they have rode that for several times. There happy and all that but me, Im not completely happy after the fieldtrip coz I didnt have the courage to face my fear and feel the fun.


What's important is that, make a life of happiness instead a life of meaning, make every drop of tears worth the pain and every happiness was shared, maybe life is unfair, it was designed by God that way. But no matter, people will love to hear that you already face your fear.


ALAS, Im happy for you if you can be tougher than life.
NO pain, NO gain. Remember that.



~ Choose Or Lose #1

1.



Earlier, Illve realized how convenient it is to live with my family, but at the same time, I also did realize how great it is, to live on your own, decide on your own, and how will my house look if Im the only person who lives in it. Astig siguro ng magiging bahay ko, tadtad ng wallpaper ng anime ang pader at ang kabinet puro costumes na pang-cosplay. Bata.


"KWARTO BA YAN?" naisip ko lang, ganyan siguro ang sasabihin ni Mama kung sakaling nandito siya. Maybe I really can't do things on my own, I mean like washing my uniforms and undies. Tshh.. I guess, I could, I should coz no matter what happen, things won't change. Im alone. im not a kid anymore. Im fifteen and yeah, independent.


It's summer but it feels strange. Cold, rainy season? Is it the so-called unpredictable weather? Tskk.. I stayed inside my house, watching the tears that fells from above through glass window. Im starving for a hot choco. Oh! I search for more coins in my house but then, I found nothing. My allowance will be released on 16th of June. It would take so long before I could have my fridge be full again. Well, my allowance doesn't come from any relatives or whatever, Im having this "scholarship" since first year and this will be the last year that I would received a stypen.


STYPEN. Money. Cash. Allowance. It is something local government give to those "bright" students so that they would continue studying. In my case, its my only hope to live, I have no job coz I'm underage.


My parents died. Left me something that I think, I would probably get when Im already 18. Lupet, bakit ang unfair ng mundo?


Im not satisfied on how God respond on my questions when I was young.. How I wished I never hope to live alone. So incomplete. So unsafe and unsecure. Terribly heavyhearted.


Still raining. Im so tired on my daily routines this summer. I want schooldays! I want June to be closer as possible! I want my stypen! I want hot choco! I want.. to feel that Im alive and kicking!



























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